Why is it that suddenly I want to just close up shop and completely quit blogging.
I'm starting to think of all the reasons why I should quit and they are starting to outnumber the reason why I would want to keep it.
Part of me feel as if this whole thing is causing more pain for me than good. I don't know, I'm going to think about it some more.
That is all for today.
Chess
Seriously, you sent another fucking pawn after me? You really think that's going to work again. How about you actually grow the fuck up and get me off your mind. I'm honored that you spend your time trying to fuck with my life, really, it makes me feel so important that you have nothing better to do with your so called life. Grow up, seriously.
I'm going to finish this, I swear. If I can just learn the truth then I can forget about this completely.
That is all for today.
I'm going to finish this, I swear. If I can just learn the truth then I can forget about this completely.
That is all for today.
Title
Why is it when we most need it, our words seem to fail us. Maybe that doesn't happen to everyone but it seems to be a recurring factor with me. When the situation requires it I can never bring myself to speak out and say what I want to say. However, give me a few hours and I will explain everything to you online or written down on a sheet of paper. I really hope I am not the only person that is drug into this type of situation. Also, don't ask me about this please. I don't know what else to say...you know who you are.
Will they seriously never get out of my life? I've tried everything in my power short of committing manslaughter to keep them out. So why do they keep coming back, I don't want this.
I wonder if there is such thin as an escape button. Screw the easy button. I would pay any amount of money for an escape button. One press, and I'm taken away to some whimsical place that nothing goes wrong.
That is all for today.
Will they seriously never get out of my life? I've tried everything in my power short of committing manslaughter to keep them out. So why do they keep coming back, I don't want this.
I wonder if there is such thin as an escape button. Screw the easy button. I would pay any amount of money for an escape button. One press, and I'm taken away to some whimsical place that nothing goes wrong.
That is all for today.
One Short Day
Well, it's obvious that Summer is in fact upon me. I have nothing to really blog about there for my posting will more than likely drastically decrease. However it still has yet to hit me that I'm on summer and I won't be seeing many of my Western friends for months.
A very strange predicament has arisen. Well, I guess I can't really call it a predicament because I'm not complaining about it...it's just strange. It involved a dream I had a few days ago. It was just strange because I haven't had a dream like that in awhile and suddenly they come back. Could it be because I'm back home now?
Once again, I'm not complaining it just kind of took me by surprise.
That is all for today.
A very strange predicament has arisen. Well, I guess I can't really call it a predicament because I'm not complaining about it...it's just strange. It involved a dream I had a few days ago. It was just strange because I haven't had a dream like that in awhile and suddenly they come back. Could it be because I'm back home now?
Once again, I'm not complaining it just kind of took me by surprise.
That is all for today.
Synopsis
As you all know, Friday was my last day of freshman year in college. I'm still waiting for it to hit me that my first year is over with. As promised I would also write a whole review of my first year on my blog...here we go.
Due to the fact that this will be rather large-cut-. I'm breaking it into sections.
:Class:
I was terrified when I first started college. I was scared about how difficult my classes would be and exactly how hard the homework/projects and other oh so joyous things would be. It was not bad all, but I'm also an Art Major and we do jack shit but draw and critique stuff. But honestly, none of my classes were hard. I just had a hard time putting effort into some that didn't strike my fancy. I did however get into some of my higher level classes when I wasn't supposed to, go me! So I'm taking a break and making sure my 'electives' for my major. But that's it for classes.
:Marching Band:
Holy crap, if it wasn't for this I doubt I would have as many friends as I do now. I met so many people through it and the overall experience was absolutely amazing. It was like nothing I had ever experience before and I was so excited to be apart of it. Even if there was a shit done of drama through it all.
:HvZ:
Jack, even though you don't read my blog and never will, I love you. HvZ is absolutely amazing. I met so many awesome people and it gave me something to do on my down time. Thank you so much! And to all my fellow players reading this...BRAINZ!!!!!
:Love Life:
I only dated two people this year. Seizure and Ego. I did kind of fool around and talk with a lot of other people but those are the only two people I actually ended up in a relationship in.
:Friends:
To all of my friends, past and current, I love you. Thank you for being apart of my amazing experience you all have made me feel infinite.
*In no particular order*
Rock: You have and will always be my best friend. I'm so glad we are stuck with each other in college in well and you made this year fun. I know we had our ups and downs but hey, we wouldn't be true friends if we fought now would we?
Ego: I still have no respect for you, I'm not apologizing for saying that because it's true. Granted before all of the drama happened we did have some good times together and I enjoyed myself at times.
Name Yeller: I wish we became friends sooner and hung out more than what we did. I am so happy to have you apart of my life and I love you ever so dearly, you mean the world to me :]
Princess: Thanks for dealing with me. That one night where we just vented towards each other helped me out a bunch. I love you and I can't wait to see you either over summer or next year, which ever comes first.
Gaga+friends: I'm sorry that what happened happened. Maybe we could have fixed things but you know what, everything happens for a reason and I stand by that. I still say hey to most of you and although that is the extent of it, thanks for the beginning of the year, I did enjoy myself.
Kinky+friends: I'm so happy you all knew how to deal with me. I was so afraid the first day I came to dinner to eat with you all. I'm still upset with what happened but as I said before, it happens for a reason. At least we are still friends and that's all that matters.
Hope: Thanks for everything--No speech in here mainly because you know where I stand because we talked about it the last day of classes--
Moocow: Dude, you are amazing. I'm so happy we met up in English and dude, don't chase Wild Turkeys, it won't end well.
Bunny: You confuse me...
Seizure: Well, I can't believe we survived our first year together. I'm honestly not sure what else to say. Don't do too much crazy shit over summer.
HvZfriends: You guys are awesome and I'm so happy that I got to be apart of HvZ with you guys.
Everyone else: I love you so much!
:Final Statement:
This year has been amazing. I know I barely even covered 1/4 of everything that happened but you know, I shared what I wanted. Everything else is going to stay inside my memory.
That is all for today.
Due to the fact that this will be rather large-cut-. I'm breaking it into sections.
:Class:
I was terrified when I first started college. I was scared about how difficult my classes would be and exactly how hard the homework/projects and other oh so joyous things would be. It was not bad all, but I'm also an Art Major and we do jack shit but draw and critique stuff. But honestly, none of my classes were hard. I just had a hard time putting effort into some that didn't strike my fancy. I did however get into some of my higher level classes when I wasn't supposed to, go me! So I'm taking a break and making sure my 'electives' for my major. But that's it for classes.
:Marching Band:
Holy crap, if it wasn't for this I doubt I would have as many friends as I do now. I met so many people through it and the overall experience was absolutely amazing. It was like nothing I had ever experience before and I was so excited to be apart of it. Even if there was a shit done of drama through it all.
:HvZ:
Jack, even though you don't read my blog and never will, I love you. HvZ is absolutely amazing. I met so many awesome people and it gave me something to do on my down time. Thank you so much! And to all my fellow players reading this...BRAINZ!!!!!
:Love Life:
I only dated two people this year. Seizure and Ego. I did kind of fool around and talk with a lot of other people but those are the only two people I actually ended up in a relationship in.
:Friends:
To all of my friends, past and current, I love you. Thank you for being apart of my amazing experience you all have made me feel infinite.
*In no particular order*
Rock: You have and will always be my best friend. I'm so glad we are stuck with each other in college in well and you made this year fun. I know we had our ups and downs but hey, we wouldn't be true friends if we fought now would we?
Ego: I still have no respect for you, I'm not apologizing for saying that because it's true. Granted before all of the drama happened we did have some good times together and I enjoyed myself at times.
Name Yeller: I wish we became friends sooner and hung out more than what we did. I am so happy to have you apart of my life and I love you ever so dearly, you mean the world to me :]
Princess: Thanks for dealing with me. That one night where we just vented towards each other helped me out a bunch. I love you and I can't wait to see you either over summer or next year, which ever comes first.
Gaga+friends: I'm sorry that what happened happened. Maybe we could have fixed things but you know what, everything happens for a reason and I stand by that. I still say hey to most of you and although that is the extent of it, thanks for the beginning of the year, I did enjoy myself.
Kinky+friends: I'm so happy you all knew how to deal with me. I was so afraid the first day I came to dinner to eat with you all. I'm still upset with what happened but as I said before, it happens for a reason. At least we are still friends and that's all that matters.
Hope: Thanks for everything--No speech in here mainly because you know where I stand because we talked about it the last day of classes--
Moocow: Dude, you are amazing. I'm so happy we met up in English and dude, don't chase Wild Turkeys, it won't end well.
Bunny: You confuse me...
Seizure: Well, I can't believe we survived our first year together. I'm honestly not sure what else to say. Don't do too much crazy shit over summer.
HvZfriends: You guys are awesome and I'm so happy that I got to be apart of HvZ with you guys.
Everyone else: I love you so much!
:Final Statement:
This year has been amazing. I know I barely even covered 1/4 of everything that happened but you know, I shared what I wanted. Everything else is going to stay inside my memory.
That is all for today.
Zero
So, officially the countdown is over now.
As I am writing this I am sitting, well laying, in my bed back home. Earlier this morning I finally completed my first year at college, it still has yet to hit me.
I want to do a very long blog but not tonight, I need more time to gather my thoughts and I have to be up at 5:45 this morning to get ready for my sisters graduation so I need to get some sleep.
Readers, be prepared to read a lot tomorrow, I hope.
That is all for today.
As I am writing this I am sitting, well laying, in my bed back home. Earlier this morning I finally completed my first year at college, it still has yet to hit me.
I want to do a very long blog but not tonight, I need more time to gather my thoughts and I have to be up at 5:45 this morning to get ready for my sisters graduation so I need to get some sleep.
Readers, be prepared to read a lot tomorrow, I hope.
That is all for today.
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